Who do you think you are?

Am i too ugly? as i know lah kan, i'm better than you la girl. Boyf dah la rempit! Pandang aku lpstu gelak2, kutuk2 aku, ek elehhhhhh kau igt kau lawa? Setakat muka kau bersih, putih kau bole gelak2 lah? Haha lawak kan muka aku? Byk pimples kan? Kau tahu tak ape pimples? JERAWAT LA BODOH! Don't you ever think that you are too perfect than anyone includin' me. Because nobody's perfect. I knew lately my life mcm tak betul. Honestly, every single day aku asyik down je. Gelak gelak la jugak kan lpstu duduk nak nangis. I can't meet him, mcm dah lost contact pun ada. Haih -,- ape aku buat semua salah. Buat itu tak kena, buat ini tak kena. Seriusly, i hate my life. And YOU. I just can't stand it anymore. Everyday i have to keep it in my heart. Because he doesn't want to interfere in my life anymore, that's what he said to me. I can only say to him that i am down and rasa nak nangis. Hm i knew i am a bad daughter. VERY BAD. But this is me. I really want to change my attitude, change my personality. And i was trying so hard to change it but i just can't because i was born to be like this. That's all, nobody understands me. Even my parents, my friends, him, sedara mara. Takde sape akan paham diri aku. Takde sape akan tahu apa aku pendam selama ni. Takde sape akan tahu apa akan jadi pada aku pada masa depan. Sorry guys, kat sini aku boleh luahkan so korang paham paham la sndiri sbb aku tanak cerita dan tolong jangan paksa aku untuk cerita apa yg jadi pada aku. Aku tak suka org paksa paksa. Let me keep it in my heart.

You don't know anything girl,

I know i am not so perfect like you. You can't say anything if you don't know anything girl, so please don't make a bad story about me. I knew why you said like that about me. It's just because HIM. He cheated on me, he never appreciate me, i knew you're close with him. Abg angkat kan or maybe yr ex-boyfie, i don't know la kan. But please don't say anything if you don't know anything. I have to repeat that because only me and him know what happened between us. So, please shut the fuck up girl.

You,

Awww i love you H <3 muahhh

H<3

Last night, i had a very sweet conversation with H (: I miss him, yes i do baby. He made a story about us. HAHA and baby you knw what, i gave you 5 star! He said to me that after SPM, if jadi he's going to London for work and i was so sad. But what can i do? Dia nak cari keje kat sana, nanti balik sini dia bawak awek sorg HAHA well, he always tell me that "i nak jadi the best for you" awww so sweet kan? Babi perasan sial aku -,- I want you so badly

I like the way you love me, serius i'm in love with you! And i love when you selak rambut i, awww i suka tau nyahhh!

Hilmie:I nak you ckp ily dekat i
Me:Haa? *suara gedik
Hilmie:I nak you pulak ckp ily dekat i,asyik2 i je yg ckp ily ily ily,mcm syok sendiri je i ni HAHAHA you tahu tk dialog sape tuh?
Me:HAHAHA okay i tahu laa
Hilmie:Sape?
Me:Neo laa,haha
Hilmie:Then if Neo cakap mcm tu,tirana akan cakap?
Me:Haa haha ermmmmm..
Hilmie:cakap apa?
Me:Eh takpe la you nak tido ennn,bye gdnight
Hilmie:Okay fine
Me:Alaaaaa! Okay okay, I love you
Hilmie:Haaa boleh pun
Me:Hahah

Actually,bukan tanak cakap tau.Line tak clear la,ecehh adik tak tido lg en.Mau kantoi nnt kecoh oh dorang HAHA.Sorry baby,ilveyousomuch and imissyousomuch (: MUAH MUAH

I'm Missing You,

Sekolah dah habis, apa lagi? Itu ah budak sekolah mesti cakap kan? HAHA tapi aku hadoy, sedih kot still tkleh klua even habis pmr pun. Like what the? Haha but maybe i'll hang out with my cousins, MAYBE. They're busy with their College or something. I just need freedom babyyyy! Oh yeah it's okay then. One more thing, I need MONEY! I only have rm50 kott, sikit gila -,- So sape baik, hulur la sikit. HAHA JOKING okay, i don't have any topic duh. Goodbye (:

Hilmie Fazhan Bin Mazlan (:

Hello readers (: Fuhhh it's been a long time i didn't blogging haha -,- Sorry mls nk update hehe. Well, i have Hilmi Fazhan Bin Mazlan. He is mine and he is my lebah haha :p i knew him from Nisa. Tapi mcm gtu gtu je ah but then ade one day ni dia panggil aku sayang, i was like ape mamat ni tbe tbe je haha sorry hilmie. Then he asked my number. So i gave it to him. Then one day i called him. He answered and we talking talking haha. Suddenly he said to me he already had a girlf and i was so sadddddddddddddd. After a few month ktrg contact each other balik kan, and i don't know why tbe tbe i fell in lve with him, serius i don't know.

I met him at sunway on 28th September 2009. I went there with Izzah. Kitorang mkn, jalan jalan, gelak gelak, hold hands awww so sweet hahahaha. Then, we sat on the bench and he declares me. Oh mannn time tu segan gila but i was trying hard not to be too shy with him. Now dia SPM. It's been a month lbih ktrg tak jumpa and i miss him like hell do ): He is kind, caring, suka bagi advice kat aku. I love his laugh and smile, serius. Sometimes kitorang suka merepek, panggil kau aku ah, mencarut ah haha. But i had fun and i am comfortable with him.

Hilmie Fazhan Bin Mazlan, you are like my angel. Even kita selalu gaduh pasal benda yg mcm tkde pape, but i still love you from all of my heart. I will try to be with you until my last breath, i repeat, i will try but i never promise with you. Okay? I miss you bee (:

What?

PMR is just around the corner? OMG! Hishhhh aku tk study ni,apa ni? Bengong aa Aisyah ni,ish ishhh :| I'm too lazy nak tengok buku weh haha.Just wish me luck.Well,last monday,i had fought with my mother.Ergh,she asked me to wear a Tudung? No way,no i mean if nak pakai tudung kena lah ikhlas mana boleh paksa-paksa.Dia kata pakai tudung tutup aurat.I know,but if pakai tudung pun still pakai jeans even pakai baju yang menampakkan bentuk badan pun itu bukan tutup aurat yang sempurna okay.And i told her pakai tudung pun perangai mcm apa,baik tak payah la pakai tudung.Setakat pki tudung nak cukupkan syarat je,hala weh tak ikhlas tak payah la.Macam minah-minah rempit tu,eeeeeeeee geli geli je aku tgk.Pakai tudung tapi mak aihh dressing,seluar nak cikang weh -,- Ntah-ntah dah main,lagi bagus.Korang bce paper? Yang ada budak sekolah menengah agama,pakai tudng labuh la kan tapi bawah tudung labuh tu pakai rantai salib,WTH? Then every weekend pegi gereja,lagi bodoh -,- Tudung labuh tu,so i decided tanak pakai tudung selagi aku tak kahwin.Tengoklah,mana tahu hati terbuka ke nnt nak pki tudung bfre marry,Alhamdulillah lah.